When the Emotions Run Deep: A Mama’s Hospital Reflections

The struggle is real. And today, the emotions are heavier than I expected.



Still in the Hospital

Right now, we’re still here in the hospital with our baby girl. My body is recovering, my heart is trying to rest, and we’re leaning into the care and monitoring she needs. I’m grateful we’re together — but we’re still separated from our other kids and even our cats at home. And that separation cuts deep.

I miss their voices. Their laughter. Their presence. I miss the ordinary rhythms of home, and the comfort of being together.



The Depth of Emotion

The emotions come in waves: anger, sadness, frustration, grief, longing. Sometimes all at once.

Anger that this isn’t how it was supposed to go.
Sadness that our family isn’t all under one roof.
Frustration with my body, still aching and healing from major surgery.
Grief that breastfeeding and pumping feel like an uphill battle, while my baby girl is just so sleepy and not interested in eating right now.

The emotions run so deep they make me want to cry until there’s nothing left.



Breathing Out Prayer

But in those moments when the weight is too much, I take a deep breath and whisper a prayer:

“Thy will be done.”

It feels simple, but it’s the only way I know how to hand over what I can’t control. Because as much as I want to fix everything, I know God is holding both me, our baby girl, and our family at home in His hands.

He knows the pain, the frustration, the longing, and the love. And He doesn’t waste a single tear or prayer whispered in these hospital walls.



Encouragement for Other Mamas

If you’re reading this and you’ve ever found yourself in a hospital room — torn between hope and heartbreak, joy and frustration — know this: your emotions are valid. You are not “too much” for feeling them. You’re human.

God can handle your anger. Your sadness. Your questions. He invites you to bring it all to Him.

“Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.” – 1 Peter 5:7 (ESV)

“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” – Psalm 34:18 (ESV)

“Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.” – Matthew 6:10 (ESV)



Final Thoughts

This season is stretching me in ways I didn’t expect. But I know even here, in the middle of hospital beeps and restless nights, God is present.

And when the emotions rise up again, I’ll keep breathing out prayer and trusting that His will, though sometimes so hard to accept, is still good.