When You’re Just Treading Water: A Postpartum Heart Check

I have to be honest. I haven’t felt like writing lately. Life has been crazy in our home, and this postpartum journey has stretched me in ways I didn’t expect. Some days I feel like I’m barely staying afloat, just treading water and hoping I don’t sink beneath the overwhelm.

There have been moments this week where I looked around and felt like everything was too much. The exhaustion, the newborn fussiness, the constant feeding, the emotions that come out of nowhere, the unexpected expenses, the endless needs. Postpartum is beautiful, but it is also heavy, raw, and humbling.

And yet, even in the middle of all that heaviness, God wove together some of the sweetest moments.

🦷 A First Tooth and a Tender Heart

This week, my five-year-old son lost his very first tooth. He was so proud, holding it up with the biggest smile. And then, out of nowhere, he came to me with a question that caught me completely off guard.

He asked how to ask Jesus into his heart.

I still don’t know exactly how much he understands at his age, but his sincerity was unmistakable. He prayed. He asked Jesus to save him and forgive him.

And while I know there is still so much learning and foundation to build, my mama heart was overwhelmed by the sweetness of that moment. A simple, honest beginning to a lifelong journey of faith.

What amazes me is that God did this while I was struggling. Not on a perfect week. Not when I felt strong or steady. But during one of my hardest weeks postpartum.

🤍 Grace in the Mess

There were moments this week where I snapped, moments where I was not the example I wanted to be. Moments where I had to apologize to my children, take a breath, step away, and ask for forgiveness. Moments where I wondered if my weakness was too loud.

But God met me right there.

He reminded me of a song I heard this week:
“Holds It All” by Travis Clark.

There is a line that stopped me in my tracks:
“The God who holds me holds it all.”

That was the reminder I needed.
The reminder that even when I feel like I’m falling apart, He is not.
Even when I am overwhelmed, He is steady.
Even when I feel broken, He is still able to use me.
Even when the days are long and heavy, He is still good.

He never abandons us.
He never stops holding us.
He never stops working, even when we feel like we have nothing left to offer.

🕊 Even in the Hard Moments

This week was full of them.
A very fussy newborn who only wanted to be held and fed.
Interrupted sleep.
Unexpected bills.
A mom who felt stretched in every direction.

And yet, God was present in every part of it.

He was there when I was tired.
He was there when I cried.
He was there when I snapped and needed forgiveness.
He was there when my son whispered a prayer of faith.
He was there when I felt empty.
He was there when I felt His peace wash over me again.

Sometimes the most powerful work God does in our homes happens when we feel like we have the least to give.

🤍 A Reminder for Your Heart and Mine

If you are walking through a hard week too, hear this:

You are not alone.
You are not failing.
Your weakness is not proof that God is absent.
It is proof that you need Him, and He is near.

The God who holds you truly holds it all.
Your home.
Your children.
Your postpartum emotions.
Your finances.
Your exhaustion.
Your healing.
Your heart.

He is still good.
Always.
Even here.
Especially here.

This mama needs that reminder constantly, and maybe you do too.

We are held.
We are carried.
We are never alone.