Five years ago, our lives were shaken once again. We’ve encountered so many trials, each one a testament to deep heartache. Yet, in each of these moments, God has been our unwavering source of comfort and strength. Despite the pain, we continue to hope and pray that His name is glorified through it all.
As I reflect on the past, I’m reminded of a time when I was grappling with the decision to share a deeply personal experience. I felt an urge in my heart that someone out there might need to hear my story, and perhaps, God would use it to touch their life.
One evening, as I poured out my thoughts and prayers, I clung to the lyrics of songs and the words of scripture for solace. My plea started as a simple, “God help, I need you,” and gradually transformed into an affirmation, “Thy will be done, I will praise you in this storm.”
The pain was profound, and I felt as though I was drowning in sorrow. Yet, I knew God was carrying me through. His peace, a true peace, was promised to me. He is in control, He is always good, and for that, I am eternally grateful for the hope and grace found in Him.
Writing about my grief was difficult. I was numb and still processing the “whys” and the silent pleas for help. I questioned why we must feel pain, why hope is given only to be seemingly taken away. But Psalm 46:1 reminds me, “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” I understand that seeking refuge in God should be my solace, yet the path to His comfort can feel so arduous when we’re in the midst of hardship.
“Even when my faith is shaken and my heart is broken, I find Christ. His love and mercy are steadfast; He has never left my side. I trust that He will use these trials for growth and to bring glory to His name.
I am still in the grieving stage, still processing. Some moments are filled with intense emotion and pain, while others are softened by the prayers and support from many, feeling Jesus’ embrace as He carries us through.
There will be more difficult days ahead, and we will need time to grieve. But through it all, I hold onto the belief that “the God who gives and takes away” will renew His mercies, that “thy will be done,” and that He will bring us comfort. Through this storm, may something good emerge. May His name be glorified and may others see His light through our trials.”
As I share this piece of my past, I’m reminded of this week 5 years ago when we received the joyous news of expecting our second child. Yet, God’s plan unfolded differently a few days later. We experienced an early miscarriage. Through the tears and heartache, I remain certain: God is always good, He is sovereign, and His peace will prevail. His name will be glorified through this storm, and into the arms of Jesus, our precious little one has been embraced.
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