Praise You in the Storm

4 years ago our life was rocked to it’s core again. We have been through so many trials. Through every one, He has provided comfort and strength. And we pray His name will continue to be glorified. It still hurts. There is still a part missing from me, but I have hope in Jesus Christ. …

This is what I wrote 4 years ago:

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“Lot’s of songs and scriptures have come to mind today. My first prayer is “God help, I need you,” throughout the day it has slowly been turning to “Thy will be done, and I will praise you in this storm.” “I’m running back to your promises one more time. Lord that’s all I can hold on to. I gotta say this has taken me by surprise. But nothing surprises You”

Although it hurts and right now I feel like I am drowning. I know God is carrying me through this. I know He is and will provide peace, true peace. I know He is in control and always good. I can’t do this without my Savior, and I am so thankful we have hope and grace through Him!

It is hard to write this. I ache, am numb, still processing. “Why?” God you must have a reason for this? Psalm 46:1 says “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” I know I can seek refuge from Him …. But why is it so hard to go to Him when we are going through hard times? I know He is the God of comfort and peace. II Corinthians 1:3 “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort.” But why is it still hard? Why do I feel numb? I want to hide … I don’t want to go through this Lord …“When my faith is shaken and my heart is broken” that is where I find Christ, His love and mercy, He is there, He never left. He will use this to grow us and bring glory to His name!

I want God to use this, I am still in the grieving stage. I am still processing. I have moments of severe emotion and pain and moments where I feel the prayers surrounding us from so many and Jesus holding us and carrying us through this. There will still be days ahead that are going to be hard. We will need time to grieve. But, through this, “the God who gives and takes away,” “let your mercies be new,” let “thy will be done,” “bring us comfort,” so that through all this, something good comes. Your name will be glorified and others will see you through this trial, this storm.

“After all You are constant. After all You are only good. After all You are sovereign.” “I will praise you in this storm,” “even though the hurt is deep and the pain is real.” “I know You have Your reasons for everything. So I will keep believing. Whatever I might be feeling, God, You are my hope … And You will be my strength,No matter what”

This past week we got news we were expecting baby number 2, this morning God’s plan was different. Without going into details, we had an early miscarriage. God is always good, He is in control, He provides peace, and His name will be glorified through this storm. Into the Arms of Jesus my precious little one”