If I’m honest… the last couple of months have felt a little like survival mode.
Not in a hopeless way.
Not without joy.
But in that very real kind of way where life suddenly becomes full of appointments, unknowns, paperwork, pain, financial stress, and trying to keep your home steady in the middle of all of it.
And somewhere in between all of that, I quietly stopped blogging for a few weeks.
Not because I didn’t care.
Not because I didn’t have things to say.
But because sometimes life shifts from “creating” to simply trying to faithfully live through the next thing in front of you.
And lately, that’s where we’ve been.
This Wasn’t the Plan
A few months ago, I didn’t expect any of this.
I didn’t expect my husband to be injured at work.
I didn’t expect workers comp paperwork, specialist appointments, MRIs, and long conversations about spinal issues, healing timelines, physical therapy, and possible surgery.
I didn’t expect the financial strain that comes with suddenly losing part of an income.
I didn’t expect to be sitting in the ER myself dealing with my own health issues at the same time.
And I definitely didn’t expect to hear the words that yes… it’s finally time for a hysterectomy.
Some seasons of life unfold slowly. And others seem to pile everything on at once.
This season has felt a little more like the second one.
The Weight of the Unknowns
I think one of the hardest parts of hard seasons is not always the actual hardship itself…
It’s the unknowns.
Not knowing:
- how long things will take
- how healing will go
- what finances will look like
- what the next phone call or appointment will bring
- how everything will work itself out
As moms and wives, I think we often feel this pressure to figure everything out immediately.
To hold everything together.
To keep everyone calm.
To make the numbers work.
To stay emotionally steady while internally carrying a thousand thoughts all at once.
And if I’m honest, there have absolutely been moments lately where anxiety has tried to creep in.
Moments where I’ve stared at all the details and thought:
“How are we supposed to navigate all of this?”
God Keeps Meeting Us Here
But something beautiful happens when you reach the point where you realize you cannot carry it all on your own.
You start depending on God differently.
Not in a cliché way.
In a real way.
A desperate way sometimes.
And over and over lately, the Lord keeps reminding me of this passage:
Matthew 6:31–32 (ESV)
“Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.”
Your heavenly Father knows.
That part keeps stopping me lately.
He already knows.
Before I panic.
Before I overthink.
Before I try to mentally solve every future problem at 2 a.m.
He knows.
Not just spiritually.
Not just emotionally.
But the actual practical needs too.
The groceries.
The bills.
The gas for appointments.
The surgeries.
The recovery.
The things we need but cannot fully figure out yet.
He knows every single part of it.
Finding Peace in Small Things
This morning it was raining while I worked on small lavender projects with the kids.
Soap.
Bookmarks.
Lavender simple syrup.
Nothing life-changing.
Nothing huge.
Just simple, quiet moments together.
And honestly, I think God gives us those moments on purpose.
Because in hard seasons, it’s easy to become so focused on survival that we stop noticing beauty altogether.
But even now:
- the rain still falls softly
- the lavender still grows
- children still laugh
- coffee still warms cold hands
- God’s creation still points back to Him
And somehow those small things remind me that His faithfulness is still woven into ordinary days.
Even these days …
Especially these days.
Learning to Hold Things Loosely
I think one of the things God is teaching me right now is how to hold life a little more loosely.
Plans change.
Bodies fail.
Unexpected things happen.
People disappoint us.
Finances shift.
And if our peace depends entirely on everything going according to our plans… we will constantly live anxious and fearful.
But peace rooted in Christ looks different.
It doesn’t mean life suddenly becomes easy.
It means we trust that even when life feels uncertain, God is not uncertain.
He is not scrambling.
He is not caught off guard.
And He will provide exactly what we need for the season we are in.
Maybe not always in the ways we expected.
But faithfully nonetheless.
We’re Still Here
Right now, we are learning to adjust.
We are slowing down. We are getting creative.
Selling things.
Making handmade items.
Spending more time together as a family.
Learning what really matters.
And honestly?
There have been hard moments… but there have also been unexpectedly sweet ones too.
I don’t think I would have chosen this season.
But I do think God is present in it.
And maybe that’s what faith sometimes looks like:
Not having every answer… But continuing to trust Him anyway.
If You’re in a Hard Season Too
Maybe your hard season looks different than ours.
Maybe it’s:
- health struggles
- financial stress
- uncertainty
- grief
- loneliness
- exhaustion
- waiting for answers
I just want to remind you today:
You are not forgotten.
God sees every detail you’re worried about.
And the same God who faithfully cares for His creation is fully capable of caring for you too.
Even here … Especially here.
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